More than once in my 40 year walk with the Lord, I’ve come to conclusions that my way is best, and more than once in my 40 year walk with the Lord, I’ve figured out it isn’t. Every so often God allows me a course correction, usually entailing me having a brief glimpse of who I really am and who He is. It’s at that point I feel all the feels Isaiah did when he exclaimed, “Woe to me!! … I am ruined!!” I think God allows us those peeks every so often so we can see just how much it was that we thought we knew and we didn’t.
I Thought I Knew
I thought I knew how to grab ahold of You, to be close to Your side.
But how can I know how to dwell in unapproachable light?
I thought I had you figured out, what to say to move Your heart.
But how can my earthly words command You, the One who orders the stars?
I thought I could impress You by all the good I've done.
But how can I compare to You, whose righteousness outshines the sun?
I thought I had perfected the tricks to make me be alright.
But how can my performance compare to the price You paid when on the cross You died?
I thought I could fix myself, present to You my best side.
But all You wanted me to do was surrender and Abide.
“Woe to me!” I cried. “I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the Lord Almighty.”